So I was in a really bad state of mind when I went to bed. I have been really struggling with my coursework and I am really starting to doubt my abilities to succeed in Computer Science. I was not even able to come close to completing a rather large programming assignment and that always drags me down. When I woke up 7:00 I really did not want to run. I just wanted to lie there and feel sorry for myself. I managed to get up and out the door. I was pretty over-dressed because the computer said it was only 37 out so that was my only real miscue of the morning.
The first mile was a bear. The legs are still sore. My IT has slowly started to show itself in the original knee pain I worked to get past. The frustrations of my world felt like a boulder weighing me down. I trudged and kept pushing to the top of my hill....my first mile.
The longer my legs kept pushing, the more relaxed and free my brain became. My pace was slow....no question....but it didn't matter. Getting out there and just doing what I have grown to love doing helps me find my center, create my balance. The run itself was pretty unremarkable. It wasn't fast....it was kind of painful...but mentally....it helped me get my focus back on track.....
Way to go, Sean!
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ReplyDeleteGREAT run today and felt good the whole time" post. Think we'll get one before race day, Sean??? :-)
I don't know that that is going to happen Jon. The run has become its own reward...but I don't know if any distance past three miles is going to be "uneventful" for the time being. But I think that is the point. As I get stronger....the longer the runs...the less things tend to happen. I guess I am still feeling like things happens because I am relatively new at this. Doesn't lessen my experience any....
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